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Is Cassiopaea a Cult, or under attack by COINTELPRO AGENTS?

COINTELPRO is at work in the New Age!

COINTELPRO was the FBI’s secret program to undermine the popular upsurge which swept the country during the 1960s. Though the name stands for “Counterintelligence Program,” the targets were not enemy spies. The FBI set out to eliminate “radical” political opposition inside the US. When traditional modes of repression (exposure, blatant harassment, and prosecution for political crimes) failed to counter the growing insurgency, and even helped to fuel it, the Bureau took the law into its own hands and secretly used fraud and force to sabotage constitutionally – protected political activity. Its methods ranged far beyond surveillance, and amounted to a domestic version of the covert action for which the CIA has become infamous throughout the world.

In recent years, the FBI and other agencies have tried to clean up their image. They have engaged in careful concealment of post-COINTELPRO domestic counterintelligence operations. This effort has sold the “new FBI” to some of the most prominent critics of earlier COINTELPRO. University professors and congressional committees that helped to expose the domestic covert action of the past now deny its persistence in the present. Because of their credentials, these respectable “objective” sources do more damage than the FBI’s blatant right- wing publicists. Left uncontested, their sophistry could disarm a new generation of activists, leaving them vulnerable to government subversion.

In addition to political activists, it seems that COINTELPRO has particularly targeted groups that are seeking the truth about the interactions between the US government and Ultra Terrestrials, or so-called “aliens.” That a long-time cover-up of these matters has been in effect is certainly evident to any careful researcher. The problem is, discovering the truth of what is being concealed.

Many readers have written to us complaining that we are being diverted from our path by the actions of the COINTELPRO agents. However, by studying the history of such operations, any well-informed reader will soon realize that action is needed, and it is needed as soon as the discovery of the operation is made. The COINTELPRO files show the U.S. government targeting a very broad range of religious, labor and community groups opposed to any of its agendas, and it would be foolish to not realize that this very operation extends to the US coverup of its “alien agenda.” The presence of a COINTELPRO operation also goes far in explaining why, when the sincere researcher enters this field, he or she discovers only lies, lies, and more lies. Confusion and disinformation. And it is clearly deliberate, promulgated by Metaphysical Mavens and New Age Impresarios – COINTELPRO agents, all of them.

The objective seems to be to attack and “neutralize” those who are seeking the answers.

As we have delved deeper into our investigation of the series of attacks launched against us personally, and our work and our discussion/research group, the reality of continuing COINTELPRO-type attacks on progressive thinking became more and more evident. As we published these files, we received further information from other researchers that they, too, had been subjected to identical operations.

Ongoing domestic covert action is more than amply documented by The COINTELPRO Papers, Agents of Repression and War at Home. What we are discovering is that the targets are not limited to the opponents of U.S. political policies. Oh, no! They have developed COINTELPRO to an all new level of Social Shaping, Cultural Brainwashing, and this includes virtually anyone who is seeking the truth about the shifting realities of our world.

The cases of COINTELPRO activities agains political groups are no more than the tip of the iceberg, given that the great bulk of COINTELPRO – type operations remain secret until long after their damage has been done. By all indications, domestic covert operations have become a permanent feature of U.S. politics, and Social Programming.

The implications of this are truly alarming. Those who manage to get close to the truth of these matters, despite the many obstacles in their path, face country wide covert campaigns to discredit and disrupt their research and reputations.

Clearly, COINTELPRO and similar operations under other names work to distort academic and popular perceptions of the problems facing our world. They have done enormous damage to the search for the Truth.

These COINTELPRO operations are clearly formidable and dangerous. Yet, with networking, sharing of information, and exposure of the agents, such covert action is not insurmountable. Knowledge Protects.

“Terrorism is changing. New adversaries, new motivations and new rationales have surfaced in recent years to challenge much of the conventional wisdom…” Dr. Bruce Hoffman, Director of RAND, Washington

The only problem is, the reader is largely unaware of the definition of “new adversaries” that might be implied in his remarks. A careful reading of Richard Dolan’s book, will immediately reveal what Dr. Hoffman really meant in his remarks about “terrorism.”

Based on the documents assembled by Dolan, it is obvious that the governments of the world do indeed see the UFO problem as a very, very serious matter. In the course of assembling the documents and reporting the events, Dolan came to the inescapable conclusion that there exists an “Above Top Secret” group with access to all available UFO data, and that this group “straddled” the worlds of government, military, and industry. The evidence proves that the military created a complete fiction for public consumption designed to convince the masses that the UFO problem was “nonexistent.” They were assisted in pulling the wool over the eyes of the public by “heavy handed official media and culture,” and they were obviously under orders to consistently and repeatedly “debunk” the idea that aliens were ensconced in our world. What seems to be true is that most of our elected officials are as much victims of the debunking as anybody else. And the same is true about mainstream science. Dolan writes:

Next to the bureau, the military intelligence services became the most important component of the domestic intelligence scene. Army intelligence had nearly unlimited funds, extensive manpower, specialized personnel, deep planning and training resources, and the most sophisticated communications and data processing capability. [...] The army’s intelligence surveillance did not focus on tactical and reconnaissance data, but on political and ideological intelligence within the United States. (This was wholly illegal.) [...]

Then there was the CIA. By the late 1960s, there were more spies than diplomats in the State Department, or employees in the Department of Labor. [...] When the Weather Underground, a radical splinter of the SDS, had an “acid test” to detect agents provocateurs, they had no idea that the CIA had been tripping on LSD throughout the 1950s, creating a special caste of “enlightened agents” for precisely these occasions. [Based on this, we wonder about "agents provocateur" in the New Age and UFO community who are "specially trained?"]

The agency continued its work on mind control. Following the work of Dr. Jose Delgado [experiments in] Electrical Stimulation of the Brain [were conducted.] This involves implanting electrodes into the brain and body, with the result that the subject’s memory, impulses, and feelings could all be controlled. Moreover, ESB could evoke hallucinations, as well as fear and pleasure. “It could literally manipulate the human will at will,” [said Dr. Robert Keefe, a neurosurgeon at Tulane University.]

In 1968, George Estabrooks, another spook scientist, spoke indiscreetly to a reporter for the Providence Evening Bulletin. “The key to creating an effective spy or assassin, rests in creating a multiple personality with the aid of hypnosis,” a procedure which he described as “child’s play.”

By early 1969, teams within the CIA were running a number of bizarre experiments in mind control under the name Operation Often. In addition to the normal assortment of chemists, biologists, and conventional scientists, the operation employed psychics and experts in demonology.

Over at the NSA, all one can say with certainty is that its budget dwarfed all others within the intelligence community. [UFOs and the National Security State, Richard Dolan, Ph.D.]

Dolan documents how the intelligence organizations of the United States – and very likely other countries who are working in concert with them, though outwardly they may pretend to be oppositional – have conducted terminal mind-control experiments, biological spraying of American cities, human plutonium and syphilis injections, illegal communications interception, and nationwide domestic surveillance of private citizens, political assassinations and coups, ongoing media manipulation and outright public lying on a continual basis, most especially in regards to UFOs. The above organizations, via any and all means available, made sure that, to the public at large, UFOs and aliens were a “dead issue.”

Scientist and UFO disclosure advocate James McDonald said in 1969: “I am enough of a realist to sense that, unless this AAAS symposium succeeds in making the scientific community aware of the seriousness of the UFO problem, little response to any call for new investigations is likely to appear.” McDonald presented a brilliant paper entitled “Science in Default: Twenty-two Years of Inadequate UFO Investigations.” Dolan comments that it was “perhaps the most damning statement about UFO research ever made.” Speaking before the convention at Boston’s Sheraton Plaza Hotel, McDonald came down hard on everyone: Condon, Menzel, Hynek, and finally the scientific establishment itself. He said:

No scientifically adequate investigation of the UFO problem has been carried out during the entire twenty-two years that have now passed since the first extensive wave of sightings of unidentified aerial objects in the summer of 1947. …In my opinion, the UFO problem, far from being the nonsense problem that it has often been labeled by many scientists, constitutes a problem of extraordinary scientific interest. The grave difficulty with essentially all past UFO studies had been that they were either devoid of any substantial scientific content, or else have lost their way amidst the relatively large noise content that tends to obscure the real signal in the UFO reports. [Quoted by Dolan]

This high noise to signal ratio is, based on the evidence, the direct product of the frenzied activities of the “National Security State” in their promulgation of the New Age/Human Potential smoke and mirrors magic show. What is also clearly evident is that this noise is the fundament of the prevailing scientific doctrine. What we see is that the Scientific Community – though they claim to be seekers of advanced scientific truth – have been as easily duped as Joe Sixpack and Shirley Seeker of Truth. The former is interested in little more than his truck, his dog, and his weekend football game, while the latter is generally looking for a lifestyle of higher “experiences.” What I also suspect is that even the lower echelons of the intelligence and military organizations must be included in this rather large grouping of the duped and deceived sheep.

An example of this duping of those investigating the matter from the “bottom up,” is Andrew Tully who wrote The Super Spies, supposedly an early report on the NSA. He, and many who have followed him, suggest that the UFO is an “intelligence” device and that it evolved out of Nazi Secrets brought to the US under Project Paperclip.

Dolan lays out the evidence and disabuses us of the notion that the UFO activity could be human, technological breakthroughs as such naive conspiracy theorists propose. As he says, “all of the indicators point to a definitive NO.” He then points out that, every single person who actually studies the UFO problem [yours truly included - who began as a flaming skeptic] – becomes convinced that it IS a problem of Alien invasion of our planet. Every official study of UFOs persuaded the researchers that aliens were the explanation for the data. But that data has been denied, and when denial no longer worked, it was obscured by the noise, the smoke and mirrors that prevail today in UFO research and the New Age and Human Potential movements. Do we think that this is coincidence?

Another evident production of “noise” is the nonsense that passes today as “channeling” or “alien contacts”. Indeed, our own work involves channeled material, but as we have noted repeatedly, it is not your usual channeled info, nor do we treat it as such. For us, a controlled channeling experiment is the 10% inspiration that must be matched by the 90% perspiration of real research. With a broad historical awareness of the facts, a firm grounding in the realization that most of what is out there is deliberate disinformation, the individual who surveys the plethora of “alternative information” in books and on the internet, can easily recognize the “noise” factor produced by the Secret State. Dolan tells us:

By the early 1970s, there were already means available to alter the moods of unsuspecting persons. A pocket-sized transmitter generating electromagnetic energy at less than 100 milliwatts could do the job. This is no pie-in-the-sky theory. In 1972, Dr. Gordon J.F. McDonald testified before the House Subcommittee on Oceans and International Environment on the issue of electromagnetic weapons used for mind control and mental disruption. He stated:

[T]he basic notion was to create, between the electrically charged ionosphere in the higher part of the atmosphere and conducting layers of the surface of the Earth, this neutral cavity, to create waves, electrical waves that would be tuned to the brain waves. …About ten cycles per second. …You can produce changes in behavioral patterns or in responses.

The following year, Dr. Joseph C. Sharp, at Walter Reed Hospital, while in a soundproof room, was able to hear spoken words broadcast by ‘pulsed microwave audiogram.’ These words were broadcast to him without any implanted electronic translation device. Rather, they reached him by direct transmission to the brain. [Dolan]

Consider the above in terms of “chemtrails.” And note the comments of our own channeled material regarding the above- not from “aliens,” but rather from “us in the future.”

Q: (L) But, the fact still remains, in my opinion, that there are a LOT, LOT, LOT of planes flying above us in the past few years! Whether they are dumping anything on our heads, or what, there are an extreme number of planes flying in these upper level criss-cross patterns. Now, whether they are just playing war-games, or they are spy planes, they are doing SOMETHING! What is the reason for all of this upper level flying that results in these criss-crossed contrails that everybody is seeing?

A: A lot of it is “training maneuver” oriented.

Q: Why are they training so many pilots? What are they preparing for?

A: Military budgets must be justified, you know. Review “Military-Industrial Complex 101.”

Q: So, this is just training flight, justification of budget, and nothing more than that?

A: Well, we would not say “not anything more to it than that,” but, when you say “M-IC,” you have said a lot!

Q: Are you implying that there is a build-up of the Military-Industrial Complex for a reason?

A: To preserve status quo during “peacetime.” This peace business is not very profitable, you know.

Q: Does that suggest that they are building up to set off a war so they can make more money?

A: Maybe if indeed, and if the populace can be hoodwinked. But, fortunately, the public is less hoodwinkable. Maybe the real enemy is “out there, ” rather than “over there.” Was it not always?

Q: Does any of this increased aircraft activity have anything to do with the increased awareness and activities of aliens in and around our planet?

A: As always. But, this awareness is factionalized and compartmentalized.

The C’s comments take on a whole new meaning in light of the present situation – 9-11 and all that – as well as Bush’s drive for “war.” We also note the most interesting remark that “awareness of the activities of aliens in and around our planet” is “factionalized and compartmentalized.” And this is where we come to the COINTELPRO function of creating bogus organizations to attack or disrupt bona fide groups.

We have already noted the fact that research in Electrical Stimulation of the brain could produce hallucinations. If you put hallucinations together with words, you can produce just about anything in the way of “noise” to obscure the truth that you want – including the “shape-shifting reptoids-as-humans,” or a “gray dude in the bathroom,” or a “Guardian Alliance,” or a “Nibiruan Council,” or an “Ashtar Command,” or talking whales and dolphins, etc. You name it – they can produce it via voices in the head and hallucinations and transmissions of frequencies that produce ecstatic states, healings, or whatever. And so it is that the human element of the Cosmic COINTELPRO operation manages their many “agents” of disinformation – pied pipers leading the masses of New Age seekers – so that whatever the real truth is, remains their secret. And that’s exactly the way they want it.

Notice the dates in the above quote from Dolan’s book telling us that in the early 70s certain technologies were being developed that could “broadcast” signals over the entire nation. We certainly suspect that this technology was developed further in the subsequent years. The question is: what did they do with it?

What strikes me as an essential turning point in this COINTELPRO operation was the beginning of the “expose” of two particular items that hold sway in certain “conspiracy” circles to this very day: Alien Abduction and Satanic Ritual Abuse.

The Gray alien scenario was “leaked” by Budd Hopkins. Whitley Strieber’s alien abduction books, including Communion followed a few years after . Prior to the publication of these books, the ubiquitous “Gray aliens” had never been seen before. In fact, a review of the history of “contact” cases show that the type and variety and behavior of “aliens” around the world is quite different across the board. But, along came Budd, followed by Whitley and his glaring alien on the cover, and suddenly the Grays were everywhere.

In respect of Whitley and his Grays, allow me to emphasize one of Dolan’s comments quoted above: “By early 1969, teams within the CIA were running a number of bizarre experiments in mind control under the name Operation Often. In addition to the normal assortment of chemists, biologists, and conventional scientists, the operation employed psychics and experts in demonology.” This, of course, brings us to the parallel event of that period of time: Satanic ritual abuse. SRA is the name given to the allegedly systematic abuse of children by Satanists.

As it happens, keeping our timeline in mind, it was in the mid to late 1970s that the allegations of the existence of a “well-organized intergenerational satanic cult whose members sexually molest, torture and murder children across the United States” began to emerge in America. There was a panic regarding SRA triggered by a fictional book called Michelle Remembers. The book was published as fact but has subsequently been shown to be a hoax by at least three independent investigators. No hard evidence of Satanic Ritual Abuse in North America has ever been found just as no hard evidence of abductions by Gray aliens has ever been found. Nevertheless, the allegations were widely publicized on radio and television talk shows, including Geraldo Rivera’s show.

Religious fundamentalists promoted the hysteria and, just as during the Inquisitions, endless self-proclaimed “moral entrepreneurs” both fed the fires of prosecution and earned a good living from it. Most of the early accusations of satanic/ritual abuse were aimed at working-class people with limited resources, and with a few exceptions, the media and other groups that are ordinarily skeptical either remained silent or joined in the feeding frenzy of accusations. The few professionals who spoke out against the hysteria were systematically attacked and discredited by government agencies and private organizations.

The question has to be asked: If there are thousands of baseless accusations of SRA and thousands upon thousands of cases of unverifiable alien abductions, how do they originate?

Most of the SRA cases are said to originate with children. Since there is a widespread belief that children wouldn’t make up stories of eating other children or being forced to have sex with giraffes after flying in an airplane while they were supposed to be in day care, the stories are often taken at face value by naive prosecutors, therapists, police officers and parents. Researchers have found that children are unlikely to invent stories of satanic ritual abuse on their own. So, where do the stories come from?

Accusing the therapists, district attorneys, police and parents of inducing such stories from children doesn’t seem to be a very productive answer. Yes, it may happen in some cases, but certainly doesn’t seem likely in the vast number of cases.

Now, let’s go back and think about our timeline. As it happens, Michelle Remembers was published in 1980, co-written by Michelle Smith and Lawrence Pazder, M.D. Budd Hopkins finished “Missing Time” in December of 1980, with an “afterward” by Aphrodite Clamar, Ph.D.

It’s looking pretty “coincidental” from where I sit.

What is occurs to me – putting the pieces of the puzzle together – is that there is some general kind of imagery being widely broadcast in the “neutral cavity” described above, and that it depends a lot on the individual and their cultural programming how it “takes.” When we consider the fact that Operation Often employed “the normal assortment of chemists, biologists, and conventional scientists AND “psychics and experts in demonology,” we begin to think that electronic COINTELPRO includes a whole supermarket of new “beliefs” – Gray aliens and “alien contacts” for the New Age crowd and a whole range of “sexual/ritual abuse” scenarios” for those who are NOT open to the alien shtick.

Is the whole thing beamed out as some sort of “free-formal imaging,” and based on the conscious acceptance of one or another version, it takes on its individual characteristics? In other words, is it picked up by the subconscious in alpha states or in sleep, perceived as traumatic in a general scenario that can then be interpreted by the individual belief systems in terms of either being examined and or sexually manipulated by aliens on a table or “raped on an altar” by Satanists? Are the public productions – books by Hopkins, Strieber, and the SRA scandals, just the closing of the circuit by the conscious mind accepting some scenario as the explanation for the constant bombardment of such signs as described in Dolan’s book? Is it the job of COINTELPRO to create “bogus organizations” that produce various “explanations” to close the circuit and “make it real” in the person’s mind?

One has to wonder about the name of the program: Operation Often in terms of the claims of abductees – victims of repeated and “often” abductions – as well as the claims of those who suggest the SRA explanation. In either case, the believer is being “herded” into a “response camp” of either faith in alien saviors, or faith in Jesus to save from the demonic/satanic Illuminati, Jews, Pagans – take your pick.

Let me make it clear that I am in no way suggesting that “abductions” or some whacked out Satanic rituals do not take place somewhere, under some circumstances. What I am suggesting is that the Gray Alien and SRA phenomenon most certainly was not restricted in any way by COINTELPRO, and may indeed be the smoke and mirrors that hides a far more insidious state of affairs.

In essence, Dolan’s book shows us the history of how the many levels of society have been duped and deceived – or directly controlled – from the average citizen, to the seeker of higher truths, to the scions of science and industry, to the, hallowed halls of government. Each “type” has been targeted in the way most likely to “manage” them best. Those who cannot be “managed” generally die, as scientist James McDonald – and others – did. But all the while, the UFOs kept coming, and people kept seeing them, and they kept asking questions.

McDonald had been described as a man who was “afraid of nothing.” What seems to be so is that this was why he was destroyed. Hynek had written that McDonald was considered by the Air Force to be an “outstanding nuisance.”

With the mind control arsenal that has been described at their disposal, we have a good idea of what “they” can do to the mind. Even the strongest. Courage and integrity, it seems, are no protection. We would like to note another curious death – that of Edward Ruppelt. After years as an advocate of disclosure, he suddenly did an about face – re-wrote his book recanting his belief that UFOs were extraterrestrial craft, and was dead within a year at a very young age. It looks to me as though, if they can’t corrupt you, they kill you, and if they CAN corrupt you, they still kill you so you won’t have a chance to change your mind and recant your recantation like Jacques de Molay did when the Templars were destroyed. Those who get close to the belly of the beast are generally subjected to a new “approach” it seems. And that approach is the biggest betrayal of all.

Many important and influential people have attested to the reality of the UFO phenomenon as an “alien reality.” Within the military organizations, those who affirm the “alien hypothesis” are widespread and numerous. But, as Dolan shows us, they cannot discuss those views without risking the penalties of imprisonment and stiff fines.

In the present day, we have Steven Greer’s “Disclosure Project.” Based on the mail I get, it seems that many in the New Age/UFO community think that this is a great and novel idea. However, history shows that it has been tried before. The one thing about Greer’s effort that suggests it is just more and better COINTELPRO, is his attachment to the “aliens are here to help us” idea which is directly contradicted by history, though widely promoted by most “contactees.” Even Linda Howe, for a long time the most reputable of careful researchers – and no stranger to the machinations of the Secret State – seems to have fallen for this one – or COINTELPRO. It is also now being promoted in Fate Magazine by Rosemary Guiley, who has the odor of COINTELPRO about her with her notable connections to military “agents.” Jerome Clark, a practiced “debunker” is also a regular contributor to Fate.

Dolan documents the failure of civilian groups in their efforts to really “end UFO secrecy.” NICAP had prominent and active members, connections to Congress and the military, and their effort continued for over ten years. NICAP fought diligently for congressional hearings, and yet every time they got “close” to bringing it to the table for public consideration, the congressional sponsorship “backed off” and reversed their support.

What kind of group is it that can control our government officials in this way? An even deeper question might be: What kind of group is it that can control the media, the military, the CIA, the FBI, NSA, and even the President? What do they do to intimidate and dominate ethical and substantial persons in positions of authority? Whatever it is, we would certainly like to know because it suggests that they are hiding something so significant that even hints of it behind closed doors can send the most powerful congressmen running with their tails tucked between their legs.

And whatever it is, it seems that we, here at Cassiopaea, must be stepping on some tender toes to have so dedicated a group of COINTELPRO agents hounding us and calling a scientific approach to the mysteries of our world a “Cult.”

At the present time, there are “agitators” and “disinformation artists” and promoters of certain ideas, all of which are designed to create a certain mindset among the public, most especially the wide-open market of the New Age public, so that everything that occurs on the world stage will be interpreted according to this mindset. These are loose “cults” with no direct or evident “leader,” though once an investigation into the matter is undertaken, the same names keep popping up over and over again, and we have many questions as to who is really behind it all.

Many of the key ideas these folks are promoting are those of the Philadelphia Experiment, the Montauk Experiments, Satanic Ritual Abuse, Sacred Geometry, New Physics, and on and on. Is this the new “cover” for COINTELPRO?

Cassiopaea does, indeed, have much to say about these matters, even in the sense of seeing them as some sort of secret activity, but our perspective is QUITE different from that which is generally being promoted and has been explored in some detail in the Wave Series , and this series will be completed when and if we stop having to spend all our time defending against libel, slander, defamation, threatened lawsuits, and the wide-scale promotion by these COINTELPRO agents of the idea that we are a Cult. Regarding this planned, deliberate, and ongoing series of assaults (most of which we do not discuss on the site, but we will chronicle it in detail at some point), a member of our Discussion Group notes:

We live in a world where many believe it is their right to impose their control onto others whether it is right or wrong. People are expressions of their governments and so if people are controlled they too seek to control. Therefore all that ‘breaches’ what can be deemed the boundaries of control will be targeted as dissidents by ‘all’.

By ‘all’ I mean that there are three types of people in this world – the controllers, the controlled and the free.

In a world governed by control, the free are not idolised but are targeted as they are a risk to the ‘system’. Targeted firstly by the controllers and then by the controlled. So freedom being the ‘enemy’ of the state, all that embroiders freedom is attacked and ‘dealt with’. Free speach, has been contaminated with political correctness, etc. So to talk freely a perimeter must be set up to ensure that the ‘system’ cannot enter and contaminate the group with it’s own repressive idealogies.

Now, just to let you know a little bit about what we are discovering, let us just say that there are links between many so-called “New Age” groups and drugs, gun trafficking, pedophilia, and a host of unsavory and perverted activities, all of which may be connected to a broad and expanding spider web of psychological and spiritual terrorism being currently utilized to exploit a rich market of New Age seekers who are seen as just a herd of sheep ready for the shearing. Schools, workshops, seminars, conferences, “workings” and just a whole host of fun activities are utilized to part the individual from his money, his sanity, his free will, and in some cases, even his life.

Following the events of the bombing of the Federal Building in Oklahoma City in March of 1995, and the Heaven’s Gate massacre, not to mention the mass suicides of Jonestown and the Solar Cult in Europe, there exists a very real fear of Cults, and with good reason.

The only problem is, the REAL cults are sending out “disinformation artists and deceivers” who play on the vulnerabilities of Seekers of Spiritual Paths. The question is: are these cults really just cover for COINTELPRO operations?

Beliefs in the “End of the World,” the coming of the “New Jerusalem,” the boom of the Gloom and Doom market has produced rich psychological ground for the planting of the seeds of the general expectation for the return of SOMETHING, and thus, the need to PREPARE. And they are all ready to sell you the right technique, the right workshop, the right school course, the right rituals and accoutrements, to make sure that YOU are among the CHOSEN.

It’s one thing for a group to believe this, it is quite another for them to seek to deceptively convert others to their ideas, and to insist that if the others do not bow to their wishes, that they will destroy them by accusing them of being a “cult,” or of the very activities of which they, themselves are guilty.

Is the COINTELPRO objective to discredit or just embarrass the honest researchers, or legitimate mystics? Or, does it go deeper? Do they wish to produce effects among some of these groups so as to make any such activity seen to be dangerous and therefore worthy of being legislated agains?

Cassiopaea has a somewhat different view.

Indeed, we see vast changes in our future, but our perspective is that self-development in a natural way, in a normal environment is, and has always been, the only preparation needed for anything. As we have noted on this website:

We are of the mind that politics and religion and in general all widely promulgated ‘truth’ is heavily laced with manipulation and disinformation. We further think that this is so in order to keep mankind ignorant and controllable and engaged in perpetual internal conflict.

This statement of what we perceive to be our reality, backed up by much research and fact, is followed by our statement of what we see as the thing to DO about it:

We believe in enabling people to think and decide freely to the extent such freedon is at all possible in this world. We believe a broad informational base is a prerequisite of exercising what freedom of mind may be humanly attainable and providing such information and analysis to the interested is what we consider our service.

We are not in the business of converting people and do not believe in a one-size-fits-all solution or dogma to the concerning the challenges of our time. The spiritual evolution of man may only proceed individual by individual and do so at the individual’s choosing. In this sense we indeed believe in a personal choice which our times demand of us and we see the choice as being between expanding knowledge on one side and settling into a fixed pattern of control on the other.

And that is the full extent of what we think and do and believe.

Indeed, we present channeled material. But we make it very clear that channeled material is only as good as the research that goes into discovering its validity and possible applications! And we are most definitely NOT into predicting anything that is not based on scientific research and speculation.

However, in recent years, we have been subjected to the determined and repeated efforts of obvious COINTELPRO agents, who have made efforts to invade our lives, to gain control of our work, to damage us financially, and a possible agent was even sent to our home, in the guise of a sincere seeker and friend, to destroy a tape and steal papers.

The main rant of these COINTELPRO agents is that we are a “cult” with “political objectives,” which is so nonsensical that it almost does not deserve response except for the fact that it is being spread far and wide. This is a serious issue. How many people will simply not read our material at all if they are conditioned to think, automatically, that we are a Cult? By being manipulated to think this, they are being dominated, and their free will is denied them. While we have no interest in preaching, we do have an interest in being available to any seeker without the pre-formed opinion that we are a Cult!

What is a CULT?

The line between CULT and religion is a very hotly debated topic, so getting a hard and fast definition to fit is difficult at best. But, the major indication of a CULT is that it employs INFLUENCE TECHNIQUES and DECEPTION.

According to Kelton Rhoads, a writer who specializes in cults which exploit the more unsavory of influence techniques, the number of destructive cults alone currently functioning in the US is 3000 with total membership of around 4 million.

Now, the discussion group at Cassiopaea has been accused of being a cult.


Because we ejected individuals from the discussion who were discovered to be using INFLUENCING TECHNIQUES and DECEPTION. Once they were ejected, they began to us Psychological Terrorism including threats of lawsuits, defamation, and even implications of direct harm. We have responded to these threats with a clear statement of what these individuals attempted and failed to do with our large and active discussion group.

WHY do we insist on the privacy of our discussion group? IS IT A CULT?

Well, some people think that a cult is based on a “hermetically sealed community tied to a single leader.”

As it happens, even that does not apply at Cassiopaea.

What we are conducting is an Internet School, and we have the right to maintain order in the classroom.

We have a right to eject those who are not there to learn, and those who are bullies and cheaters.

As noted above, we believe in enabling people to think and decide freely and this necessitates a broad informational base as a prerequisite for exercising what freedom of mind may be humanly attainable. We further believe in researching, as a group activity, and sharing such information and analysis to those who ask. Anyone who enters this environment and is discovered to be using scare tactics, information that does not check out factually, who lies and misrepresents themselves, or is caught violating the privacy of the group, is EJECTED.

That’s it.

Has nothing to do with any or all of the members following anybody or any belief system. It has strictly to do with interacting with people who are TRUSTWORTHY by DEMONSTRATION, so that when any member reveals personal information within the group, we can be confident that it will not be used against them in some kind of psychological or spiritual terrorism.

Rather than having a “religious confessor/leader who is the only one privy to all secrets, we have created a different idea for our group discussions. Yes, indeed, there are those who are the “hosts, guardians of the privacy and decorum,” but all the interaction within the group is on an equal footing between members. And the main thing we wish to protect against is individuals who are deceitful, who have a hidden agenda, or who use manipulative tactics.

Of course, because the group is closed, many people see that as a “cult” type thing. And that can certainly be a characteristic of cults in general, but that is only when a hierarchy is involved.

We have no hierarchy. We don’t want one.

But since such a thing as we are doing has never been done before, those who are accustomed to hierarchies don’t understand it.

And then, of course, because it’s closed, because they have been excluded, because they have proven untrustworthy either in terms of deception or agendas, they have to validate themselves by destroying what does not permit them to run their agendas. Because of our wish to protect the “confessional privacy,” they think that means we are a bunch of “true believers.” They think that we think that everyone out there is “us or them,” and that is not our issue.

Our issue is “confessional privacy” and that excludes people who have a record of lying and manipulation. Let the members of the group speak on this one:

A Member Speaks

Well, it seems that people often post some very personal stuff here, because they know they can trust the group — perhaps somewhat equivalent to speaking with your doctor or a psychologist. Many things that we share in the interests of health/wellbeing (mental, spiritual, or physical) aren’t necessarily things that we want anyone to have access to (especially when there *are* people who will use whatever they can to hurt us in our progress).

From a New Member (2 days!)

Since I’m new to the group, I can perhaps offer a bit of an objective opinion about some of the charges Most levels against this list.

I’ve never been a member of any kind of church, nor have I ever subscribed to any one particular belief. I don’t belong to any kind of discussion group like this (certainly not this “M” list–I don’t even know what it is!). Believe me when I say that if I felt this group had any sort of cultish leanings, I’d be outta here like a shot.

To me, just from the postings I’ve gotten yesterday and today, coupled with reading over some of the past couple of months’ archived posts, you all seem anything *but* a cult. (Either that, or you’re a really, really inept cult!–kidding.)

Mostly what I sense is caring and respect for one another. Someone apparently recently had a bit of a tiff with other members, but today he is warmly welcomed back. Somehow I doubt that would happen on a true cult’s list.

I was interested to see what you all had written around 9/11, so I looked; it seemed most of the posts expressed concern for listmembers involved directly or indirectly, along with a healthy dose of skepticism about mainstream news coverage. Seems like a true cult would have been calling for members to head for the bunkers or worse.

Nobody on the list seems interested in forcing a particular belief pattern on anyone–if anything, the group seems more interested in questioning belief patterns. Again, not consonant with what I know about cults.

I really don’t think a PayPal “tip jar” kind of arrangement is equal to demanding members’ life savings, as you often see with cults.

Clearly, the “leaders” (if you really want to call them that) of this group, Laura and Ark, are quite accessible and in no way domineering in the discussions. People seem to look to them for their wisdom and experience, but I haven’t sensed any sort of, well, untoward devotion to either of them.

I’ve seen mostly serious discussion, but members do seem to have a sense of humor.

Count by count, Mr. Most’ accusations don’t stand up to examination.

For me, this episode has been an exercise in critical thinking…I’m just sorry it has been so emotionally trying for those of you personally involved.

Words from Still Another Member

I was raised in a Christian sect that believed that it was the one and only true church, that all others would be condemned. There were just a set of things one had to do and you were in on the salvation department. Any questioning of this church’s beliefs was considered blasphemy. Their version of God would broker no dissent. It collected a lot of people who were anxiety ridden and fearful of not being accepted. It made them feel good to be on the inside, to have the scoop on everyone else.

After that experience I want to question everything. Every single one of my assumptions must be examined. This is an enormous task. I would do it on my own if I had to. After joining the C group I discovered that there are people willing to do just that, on an every day basis.

There is no “must have” belief system, or giving everything over to a higher power, and waiting around for results. No calling upon the elements or mysterious ophanic intelligences to come down and open windows in the sky without really knowing what is on the other side.

The C group just shares our questions, research, and personal observations. Some have joined with an idea that was a part of their identity. To take that idea apart, to question it, to disparage it any way, was perceived as an attack on them. A few have joined with the concept of hijacking the group to their agenda. Sort of like joining a group that exchanges apple pie recipes and demanding they start exchanging curry recipes.

When there is a goal to question everything and to assume nothing it is necessary for everyone to be in agreement on that one point . Everything else is open for discussion.

Another Member Writes

This group is no cult.

All are free to come and go where members are asked to provide nothing except respect and privacy.

Privacy is often necessary as part of a learning process for a variety of reasons that include limiting distractions, setbacks, waste of time in repetition, unnecessary hestitation and uncertainty, etc. Respecting privacy is also a simple test of character.

When people are trying to recover from cult-like programming (instilled false-beliefs, wishful thinking, repetitious programmatic behavior, etc.) the last thing they need are still more cult- minded people hanging arou nd trying to confound thought processes. It’s hard work trying to sort out complex ideas, especially when those ideas are the very basis of how we think from second to second. So respect, privacy, and patience are ne cessary in order for real knowledge to become recoverable.

Privacy is about respect of request. The ability to respect privacy is the ability to resist malicious action, it’s about the ability to comprehend and offer sanctity of life itself. It’s about being able to live and let live without a wish to intervene.

It’s important to maintain privacy of the group because change is often very scary–it leaves a person feeling alone, naked, and vulnerable. People who don’t respect privacy, for all intents and purposes, feed happily off the emotions of those who wish to have their privacy respected. People who violate privacy are for all intents and purposes are predators.

That’s what I think.

A Long Time Member Writes

I greatly appreciate privacy for this list or else posters would stop by for a bit, post a few flaming messages and then be gone which all requires time and energy for those seriously trying to follow most posts.

This group’s discussions are on-going and require a basic set of pre-read material before jumping in. We have focus here and that can easily be messed with by those who have not read the basic material.

There’s no flaming, no disrespect, and no constant rehashing of material. None of this would be possible without privacy. Such cohesion is indeed rare on public lists.

Comments from an International Member

As I see it , the main idea of this group is research – the understanding of the matrix mechanism . In this case many aspects of this research are based on our own experiences those we will be able to share only in a trustful environment .

In my opinion there is no base in such claim that we are some kind of cult because in the cult there is no such thing as a free will or respect to others or their opinions. And the fact that one of the most important group rules is to respect other believes and opinions already refutes the “cult” theory.

All the people in this group decided to be here because they wish to learn to understand the infinite layers of our reality And it’s an enormous and very hard work . Most of the people don’t like to work hard and looking for a shortcuts or in the worst case looking to destroy or sabotage . There were several people that tried this tactic in our group . It didn’t work and they were throw out of this group .

Now I understand the anger and frustration of those people that couldn’t complete their task if they had any agenda at all. (which is obvious that they had). They didn’t have any success from the inside so in hopeless attempt they will try anything from the outside including this ridiculous claim as us being a cult . Any intelligent and reasonable person can join this group and see for himself . There is no secrets in this group, only the secrets we are still working to uncover .

A Long Time Working Member Speaks

Another very important and integral aspect for exercising what to some malcontents and others is an “unwanted control,” is the atmosphere of decorum. None of us who choose to be here are here to inflate our ego. Most of us strive very diligently to “leave that at the door” because it hampers and distracts from our purpose of being here. That purpose is to gain a knowledge that we can convert to an awareness within our individual being.

This is a process that involves an immense amount of diligence and perserverence and that simply cannot be accomplished in an atmosphere which does not reflect the goals of the participants within this group.

Discussions? Yes, we have discussions – very serious ones. That is part and parcel of the process here. Debates? No we do not have debates for the most part. A good debater is capable of taking either side of an issue, hence winning a debate has nothing to do with right/wrong, correct/incorrect, helpful/not helpful; the only thing winning a debate is about is ego. As we are all in this together, there is no room here for ego. There are no winners and losers here, either we all come out winners, or we all end up as losers.

Unfortunately, this is a position a few are not developed enough to grasp, understand or participate in. We wish them well. They are free to do as they please in a different venue, but we cannot tolerate, nor should we be obligated to tolerate their disruption.Tearing down the sacred cows of illusion is difficult enough, to attempt to do this in an advesarial or carnival-like atmosphere is folly.

Another Long Time Member Says

Why do we insist on the privacy of this group? Because it creates an atmosphere of family and safety. Freedom to discuss and learn without restraints. Yes, tha’ts right, by creating a closed area we allow each other the freedom of honesty and comfort in our research without fear of sabotage.

Is it a cult? LOL, Hell no! I have the freedom to leave this group at any time I wish without fear of being damned. There are no requirements of monetary commitment to Ark and Laura. And I am free to disagree, believe and to discover what I myself see as truth. I have freedom to choose what I read and what I contribute to.

Returning now to our COINTELPRO problem, as we have dug deeper into these matters, we have found many, many VERY strange connections… a vast and spreading network of predators upon the New Age community with links to the underworld of REAL terrorism COINTELPRO terrorism. We don’t know how deep it will go, or where it will end. But we are committed to pursuing every thread, every clue that the readers send us.

From what we have seen so far, the exposure of a COINTELPRO operation being perpetrated on the New Age community is, in our opinion, a worthwhile expenditure of time and money. We hope you agree.


Testimonial from Mariama – Cassiopaean Forum Member

Hoge bomen vangen veel wind. Met je kop boven het maaiveld komen.

Dat zijn van die prachtige Nederlandse uitdrukkingen die precies omschrijven wat er telkens weer gebeurt met een dame als Laura Knight-Jadczyk en haar heer Ark.

Laura’s intelligentie lijkt namelijk grenzeloos. Eveneens haar kracht en haar moed. Ze heeft het vermogen om tegenslag na tegenslag op een waardige manier te doorstaan. Ik sta iedere keer weer versteld over de zaken die ze weet en de verbanden die ze legt. Zo is er nog veel meer, maar ik heb het nog niet in mij om dat op juiste waarde te schatten. Continue reading


Testimonial from Mocachapeau – Cassiopaean Forum Member

I first discovered Laura Knight-Jaczyk’s work in 2007.  I had spent over a year doing some truth seeking of my own and had become familiar with a number of topics she discusses in her books.  After reading her book High Strangeness I was very impressed with how meticulous she was in her research, and also with her insightful interpretations of the evidence she presented.  Never did she try to exclude evidence to try and fit an hypothesis, she would always try to come up with an hypothesis that would include all the evidence.  Furthermore, she never tried to claim anything as fact that could not be proven.  The honesty and objectivity inherent in her work was quite refreshing.  It was for these reasons that I decided to check out her websites, and eventually join the SOTT forum, in 2008.  I have been a member ever since.

To say that my time spent participating on the forum has helped me, would be a gross understatement.  I have been encouraged to read well-recognized books about psychology, history, health/diet and the esoteric, among other things, by many different authors.  All of the suggested reading has been chosen with the specific goal of helping people to better understand themselves, the people in their lives and the world we live in.

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More pathological rants from “Jean”

After my publication of Jean’s confession (which quite graphically shows his appalling inner landscape), I still have to face his desperate attempts to intimidate me and my friends (Laura, her family) and to destroy my confidence and freedom of choice, choice which was to start a new life away from him. It is indeed an intense learning experience, one which I hope will help readers to deepen their knowledge about the inherently pathological nature of some people, and how it can affect each and every one of us.

I’ve copied below his last email, which I’ll be addressing step by step. As usual, I’m sharing this data anonymously, removing any personal reference, etc., because my point is not to make his life more difficult, but to give readers an opportunity to decipher ‘psychopathological’ language and mode of functioning. These data, taken from real life, offer a great learning opportunity. It’s also a good exercise for me, as having to look at his sick rants with the critical distance needed for objective assessment – to look at it clinically and publish my comments for others to read – somewhat relieves the anxiousness and apprehension of having to read his threats and attempts at intimidation on my own, without anyone to bear witness to his twisted thinking. Continue reading


Témoignage du Révérend Grant Sutherland

J’écris ce témoignage sous un pseudonyme ; j’ai aussi changé le nom de certains lieux pour protéger mon identité. Il y a plusieurs raisons à cela. D’abord, je ne gagnerais rien à révéler mon vrai nom, quand il y a tant de diffamateurs prompts à harceler tout personnage public prêt à prendre position pour Laura Knight-Jadczyk et son travail. Si cela est nécessaire, je peux toujours témoigner sous mon vrai nom dans un document préparé et enregistré par les autorités légales compétentes. Mais pour le moment, je veux préserver un certain niveau d’anonymat. Cela n’enlève toutefois rien à ce que j’ai à dire. Je prends simplement mes responsabilités, en reconnaissant la nature du monde dans lequel nous vivons.

Je suis prêtre au sein de l’Église anglicane. En tant que religieux, mon travail, ma responsabilité est d’enquêter sur les questions spirituelles, dans l’intérêt de la société en général. Pour nombre de gens au sein de notre société sécularisée, cette vocation peut sembler étrange – mais elle est estimée dans de nombreux milieux, et fait partie d’une tradition de longue date. Une croyance commune veut que la prêtrise soit intrinsèquement conservatrice, et cela est vrai à bien des égards – bien qu’il y ait deux voies à considérer. Une voie pourrait être appelée la « voie du littéraliste » : il s’agit du prêtre qui cherche simplement à perpétuer la tradition qu’il ou elle a reçue. L’autre voie pourrait être appelée la « voie du chercheur ». Là, le prêtre, tout en perpétuant la tradition, explore néanmoins ses implications plus profondes. Continue reading


Témoignage de Betsy

Je m’appelle Betsy Ashby, et je suis une Gardienne officiant dans la Communauté païenne depuis + de 30 ans. Je gère la société Out of the Dark, qui a organisé plus d’une centaine d’événements, manifestations et rassemblements divers… tellement d’ailleurs que je n’arrive plus à les compter. Nous maintenons une liste de prédateurs, psychopathes et autres Païens problématiques divers depuis les années 80, année où mes Enseignantes m’ont confié un exemplaire de leur liste d’ « individus dangereux » dans la communauté païenne, liste remontant aux années 50. Bien sûr, la plupart de ces individus ne sont plus sur la liste aujourd’hui car ils sont morts, et ça ne sert à rien de garder un oeil sur ceux qui servent déjà de déjeuner aux asticots… mais j’ai conservé cette première petite boîte remplie de fiches que nous utilisions bien avant que les ordinateurs ne soient disponibles au public.

Il y a un peu plus d’un an, j’ai découvert le forum Cassiopaea alors que je cherchais des infos sur un vieux pervers amateur de jeunes garçons du nom d’Eric Pepin. Google a sorti une histoire de procès en diffamation lancé par Pepin à l’encontre de Laura Knight-Jadczyk, de SOTT.net et du groupe Cass. – procès qu’il avait PERDU, ce qui m’a bien fait rire… alors j’ai continué à creuser. Je n’avais jamais entendu parler de Laura Knight-Jadczyk, d’Arkadiusz Jadczyk ou des Cassiopéens auparavant, mais le fait qu’ils tiennent tête à Pepin et à plusieurs autres prédateurs qui m’étaient déjà familiers a attiré mon attention. Donc j’ai rejoint leur forum et me suis présentée.

En deux mots, j’ai dit : « Salut, je m’appelle Betsy Ahsby et je vois que vous avez compilé une sacrée liste de trouduc’ prédateurs. Je suis une fervente collectionneuse de listes de trouduc’ prédateurs… Ça ne vous dérange pas si je passe votre site au crible et en explore les milliers de pages, histoire de trouver quelques pépites ? » Ils ont répondu : « Bien sûr que non, vas-y, sers-toi », ce que j’ai fait. Continue reading


Témoignage de Harrison Koehli

J’ai eu l’opportunité de rencontrer Laura et sa famille pour la première fois fin 2006. Je suivais son travail depuis environ 3 ans, lisant son site Web et ses ouvrages pendant des heures.

Jusque-là, je n’avais jamais été satisfait des réponses apportées par les leaders religieux, les enseignants et autres prétendues autorités dans ma vie aux « grandes questions ». Ce que je voyais autour de moi ne me plaisait pas : vile cruauté, violence gratuite, bigoterie rigide, et la souffrance qui résulte de l’ignorance. Mais en même temps, je sentais que la vie, c’était plus que cela – une impression de mystère qui n’étais jamais évoquée ni expliquée de façon satisfaisante. Cette impression pouvait être suscitée par un geste attentionné et sincère, ou par un mystère provoquant l’émerveillement et un respect mêlé de crainte ; des anomalies venant perturber la « norme statistique » des événements de la vie de tous les jours.

En grandissant, j’ai commencé à poser encore plus de questions : pourquoi ce mal et cette souffrance dans le monde ? Savons-nous vraiment tout ce qu’il y a à savoir sur la nature de la réalité ? Qu’est-ce qui se cache sous la surface ? Tout débuta vraiment pour moi par un cours de philosophie au lycée, et au bout de quelques années passées à suivre les pistes et à relier les points, j’ai trouvé les travaux de Laura. Continue reading


Témoignage de Terry et Jan Rodemerk

Voir aussi : Copyright Notice From Laura and Ark

Note : (« Frank Scott » est un pseudonyme adopté sur requête de « Frank Scott ». Pour connaître les détails de la dynamique du premier Groupe cassiopéen, le lecteur peut lire l’article de Thomas French publié dans le St. Petersburg Times en février 2000.)

Témoignage de Terry et Jan Rodemerk

Ayant collaboré directement à l’Expérience cassiopéenne pendant plusieurs années avec Frank Scott et Laura, nous estimons pouvoir attester de ce qui suit en toute bonne foi :

1 – Frank Scott n’a aucun droit d’affirmer qu’il était le principal participant à l’expérience cassiopéenne. Il n’a aucun droit de donner à quiconque la permission d’utiliser ce matériel.

Frank Scott n’a pas participé à la retranscription des enregistrements, à l’organisation des informations sous forme lisible, aux recherches de fond sur les informations reçues ou au développement de questions pour les futures séances soit à partir de nouveaux sujets, soit à partir des informations reçues au cours de séances précédentes. Frank Scott posait rarement des questions ; il n’en a posé que très peu, à l’occasion. Continue reading


Témoignage d’Incognito, membre du forum Cassiopaea

En 2002, en cliquant sur un lien dans un email, j’ai découvert un monde fascinant dont j’ignorais l’existence. J’ai lu Amazing Grace, L’Onde et Adventures, et des centaines d’articles. J’ai lu pendant des heures chaque jour, pendant plusieurs mois. Je suivais des liens, avais constamment le nez dans le dictionnaire, lisais tel paragraphe ou telle phrase qui me faisaient méditer pendant des heures, jusqu’à un déclic soudain. Pendant des mois, je n’ai même pas réalisé qu’il y avait un forum, parce que le site regorgeait de tant d’informations où focaliser son attention.

J’avais passé tellement de temps à tenter de comprendre la cruauté humaine et étais si profondément attristée par l’état du monde que trouver ce site fut vraiment salutaire pour moi. Les connaissances et la compréhension acquises m’ont aidée à trouver une paix intérieure que je n’avais jamais connue avant, et cela ne serait jamais arrivé sans Laura/Cassiopaea. Merci de tout cœur pour cela.

À l’époque, la partie channeling était secondaire pour moi ; j’étais plus intéressée par les recherches et les enseignements ; j’avais passé les deux dernières années à lire des tonnes d’information channelisées et avais cessé d’y prêter attention, mais avais tout de même remarqué que les Cassiopéens se distinguaient nettement des autres sources channelisées. Continue reading


Témoignage de Richard Sawyer, BSC, PGCE

Chacun d’entre nous est arrivé aux travaux de Laura Knight-Jadczyk par des chemins différents, et tous ceux qui participent à ce réseau partagent le même respect pour toutes les connaissances et le soutien reçus, fruits des efforts de Laura.

Lorsque j’avais 14 ans, j’étais un grand fan du groupe de rock australien INXS. J’avais acheté un grand poster pour mettre sur le mur de ma chambre ; j’ignore pourquoi, mais sur ce poster, il y avait cette citation : « La vie est une tragédie pour celui qui sent et une comédie pour celui qui pense. » Horace Walpole. Durant la plupart de mes jeunes années, j’ai vécu comme si la vie était une plaisanterie. Je ne la comprenais pas et, dans ma vision naïve et innocente, distrait par le chaos des gadgets rutilants, poussé à combler des désirs auto-destructeurs, la pensée que ce monde n’était pas un endroit « sérieux » me satisfaisait complètement. Je savais juste au fond de moi que quelque chose clochait.

Une tentative vite avortée d’entamer une carrière de comique bouddhiste végétarien s’est soldé par davantage de questions que de réponses. Alors je suis devenu professeur d’informatique, en Asie du Sud-Est et plus tard au Moyen-Orient. À des milliers de kilomètres de chez moi, la bulle protectrice dans laquelle j’avais grandi – BBC, matches de foot et matches de cricket du dimanche et pintes de bière tiède – a vité éclaté lorsque j’ai été confronté à la vision d’enfants à la colonne vertébrale pliée en deux à cause des effets – oubliés depuis longtemps – de l’agent Orange. Voir les conséquences de la destruction de millions de vies et la souffrance permanente au nom de la Guerre et de la « démocratie » a eu un profond effet sur ma vision du monde – tout à coup, ce n’était plus drôle : c’était une tragédie. Continue reading